why did her tumblr make me cry the other day… i have always looked at it to see her true emotions the one place i could go. i know everything is not ok. she is worse off than i have ever seen her. but her tumblr did not reflect it. i would view it as optimism but we dont talk anymore so i dont know what to think. she wont tell me what is going on in her life. i told her how it made me feel now the page is locked. im going crazy without her. 

i hate playing the wonder game…. i wonder what she is going through. i wonder what she is thinking. i always lose that game.

i fuck up sometimes.

i care about her more than anything i have cared about in my entire life. but she refuses to believe it.

why does love have to be a learning process. 

i have a common case of no correct answer syndrome 

there are some arguments you just cant win even when you know you are right

everything i say or do turns into an insult…

you look cute 

ya i can look cute sometimes too ya know

(pick up purse)

i got it. you think i am incapable of everything

let me hear your southern accent 

no you will just make fun of me

no i wont i promise, please?

no

 things will never go your way unless you believe they will.

positivity is the key to happiness. without staying positive in rough times you fall into the depths of depression with no chance of making it out.